Have you ever just needed a day to yourself?
A day where you could stay in bed. A day you could spend how you wanted.
The perfect day.
Lately, as you've probably been able to tell from my last two posts, I've been kind of stressed out with a lot of different things, and today, I let them all go.
I was able to sleep in a little bit since I wasn't able to go to my tutoring job this morning.
I downloaded Adobe Illustrator on my computer, and made a few cute designs/posters.
I stayed in my pajamas and kept my hair crazy and undone all day.
I listened to music that made me happy.
I took a long bubble bath.
I did my hair cute and my makeup was nice.
I get to go to work tonight, which is where I actually get to see people my age and hang out and laugh.
I read the General Conference Ensign from this past April session.
I did my nails.
I could keep going, but I think you get the picture.
Today, I was completely lazy, and did things I wanted to do--things that I felt that I needed to do to help myself a little bit.
Some days, you just need a perfect day to be yourself.
Live. Love. Laugh. Grow.
Thursday, June 20, 2013
Wednesday, June 19, 2013
I'm a...SOPHOMORE?!
I recently registered for my Fall 2013 Semester classes! I am so excited to finally be able to get started with getting ready for classes and going back to school! In just about a month and a half (August), I will be getting information about my roommates, my housing, and getting ready for classes! I couldn't be more excited! I'm technically a sophomore in college now, can you believe it?!?
Just so you know what my schedule will be like, I'll post what my classes are that I've signed up for. Fair warning though, I'm signed up for 19 credits, but ElEd classes are actually usually worth a few more. Technically, I think it's about 23 or so credits worth of work and time that I'll have on my hands, but I couldn't be more excited and ready to go back to school!
FDENG201 - Advanced Writing/Critical Thinking
This class will actually be an online class I'm taking, but it sounds really difficult so far. English has always been my favorite class, and I've always done really well in it, but this class sounds HARD. There will be lots of argumentative papers, research and thesis papers, etc, so it will be a little different of writing than I've done before, but nothing to worry over right now. It's going to make me learn and grow, right? :)
FDREL200 - Family Foundations
This is a required class of every student at BYU-Idaho, and I'm actually really looking forward to it. Not only is this class taught by a man who used to be in my bishopbric growing up, but it focuses on The Family: A Proclamation to the World", and teaches us how to be ready to start a family, how to focus our lives on the Lord, etc. I've heard that my teacher is really hard, but he makes you learn a LOT about family, yourself, etc. I'm really looking forward to it.
FDSCI205 - Understanding DNA
This is a general elective class I chose to take this semester, and I'm looking forward to it! I'm not super good at science, but this class seemed to sound really interesting!
HIST115 - History and Civics for El Ed
This class, I'm not looking forward to tremendously. I don't really like history classes, but I guess if it's helping me become a teacher, I'll do it! Hopefully there's lots of coloring maps and stuff. :) Probably not, but I'm crossing my fingers!
MATH205 - Fundamentals of Number Theory
I have to have this class for El Ed, and I think I'm mostly excited for this class because my textbook is an illustrated math textbook/dictionary. We learn how to teach kids math, how to count through shapes, colors, projects, etc. I am SUPER excited. Probably the one math class I'll actually WANT to make it to!
ED242 - Motivation and Management
This class will teach me how to control a classroom, how to help kids throughout the school day, etc. I'm pretty excited for this one, because I'll actually get to use what I learn in the next class I describe....
ED241 - Elementary Early Field Experience
This class, I might be the most excited for!! I get to start traveling to Elementary schools, teaching kids one-on-one, in groups, and eventually in class settings! Although I will have teachers critiquing me along the way, I don't find that scary (yet!), but instead motivating to do the best I can! Another fun part of this class will be a handwriting and lettering section! I'm SO excited to learn how to write letters a little differently so that little kids can understand on a white board, what I write to them on their papers, etc. I absolutely cannot wait for this class!
These are all my classes this semester! They will definitely keep me busy, that's for sure! I'm extremely excited to go back to Rexburg, see my friends, and be right where I need to be. The temple will be visible from anywhere I walk, I will be able to make new friends, and I will have homework again! That sounds a little weird, doesn't it? At this point though, homework is more fun than work, and I'm looking forward to long days filled with cutting out papers, stapling lesson plans together, and getting ready to be a teacher!
Live. Love. Laugh. Grow.
Just so you know what my schedule will be like, I'll post what my classes are that I've signed up for. Fair warning though, I'm signed up for 19 credits, but ElEd classes are actually usually worth a few more. Technically, I think it's about 23 or so credits worth of work and time that I'll have on my hands, but I couldn't be more excited and ready to go back to school!
FDENG201 - Advanced Writing/Critical Thinking
This class will actually be an online class I'm taking, but it sounds really difficult so far. English has always been my favorite class, and I've always done really well in it, but this class sounds HARD. There will be lots of argumentative papers, research and thesis papers, etc, so it will be a little different of writing than I've done before, but nothing to worry over right now. It's going to make me learn and grow, right? :)
FDREL200 - Family Foundations
This is a required class of every student at BYU-Idaho, and I'm actually really looking forward to it. Not only is this class taught by a man who used to be in my bishopbric growing up, but it focuses on The Family: A Proclamation to the World", and teaches us how to be ready to start a family, how to focus our lives on the Lord, etc. I've heard that my teacher is really hard, but he makes you learn a LOT about family, yourself, etc. I'm really looking forward to it.
FDSCI205 - Understanding DNA
This is a general elective class I chose to take this semester, and I'm looking forward to it! I'm not super good at science, but this class seemed to sound really interesting!
HIST115 - History and Civics for El Ed
This class, I'm not looking forward to tremendously. I don't really like history classes, but I guess if it's helping me become a teacher, I'll do it! Hopefully there's lots of coloring maps and stuff. :) Probably not, but I'm crossing my fingers!
MATH205 - Fundamentals of Number Theory
I have to have this class for El Ed, and I think I'm mostly excited for this class because my textbook is an illustrated math textbook/dictionary. We learn how to teach kids math, how to count through shapes, colors, projects, etc. I am SUPER excited. Probably the one math class I'll actually WANT to make it to!
ED242 - Motivation and Management
This class will teach me how to control a classroom, how to help kids throughout the school day, etc. I'm pretty excited for this one, because I'll actually get to use what I learn in the next class I describe....
ED241 - Elementary Early Field Experience
This class, I might be the most excited for!! I get to start traveling to Elementary schools, teaching kids one-on-one, in groups, and eventually in class settings! Although I will have teachers critiquing me along the way, I don't find that scary (yet!), but instead motivating to do the best I can! Another fun part of this class will be a handwriting and lettering section! I'm SO excited to learn how to write letters a little differently so that little kids can understand on a white board, what I write to them on their papers, etc. I absolutely cannot wait for this class!
These are all my classes this semester! They will definitely keep me busy, that's for sure! I'm extremely excited to go back to Rexburg, see my friends, and be right where I need to be. The temple will be visible from anywhere I walk, I will be able to make new friends, and I will have homework again! That sounds a little weird, doesn't it? At this point though, homework is more fun than work, and I'm looking forward to long days filled with cutting out papers, stapling lesson plans together, and getting ready to be a teacher!
Live. Love. Laugh. Grow.
Tuesday, June 18, 2013
So Many Rambles
I have a few things on my mind, and it helps me to just get it out there to feel a little more relieved. I don't know why that works, but it helps me a little bit.
I guess I'll get the negative thing off my mind first so that this post ends on a very positive note. :)
You may remember that in October when they made the missionary age change announcement, I felt strongly that I needed to serve a mission for the church. Many people were very supportive of my decision, and lots of people were very willing to lend me a hand with advice, scripture reading tips, etc, for my mission, and I was thrilled with all the support.
Although many people were supporting me, including my family, I was hitting roadblock after roadblock after roadblock with just getting the mission papers started. I know that Satan tries to prevent people from going on missions, but this didn't quite seem like that.
I remember one Seminary class I had where a teacher told us that Satan doesn't always tempt us with bad decisions or things. He can tempt us with very good things, but things that would distract us from the righteous thing we were supposed to be doing at that moment. Usually these things happen at a moment in our life that could be life-changing. Satan knows we're not going to do something drastically bad on a whim, but he knows the righteous will choose the more righteous thing over the other if there's a choice of that. A decision of what's good, better, and best.
I know now, after hitting roadblocks with my major, my schooling, and other things, I am sure that I am not supposed to serve a formal mission, wearing a name tag, but rather stay at school and finish my schooling before anything else. Just because I don't wear a black name tag that says "Sister Rowe" on it does not mean I am less capable or worth less than other sister missionaries that are out serving. Yes, they are doing a great thing and are noteworthy for leaving their families and their lives behind for a year and a half, but they aren't the only sister missionaries in the world.
There are lots of girls like me out there that haven't served a mission and won't be serving a formal mission, but that's okay. That doesn't mean we're less important or capable than other sisters. I'm not trying to put sister missionaries down at all--I'm really not. Most of my friends are on missions right now. And I couldn't be prouder and happier of them. This is a great experience for them.
What I just don't like is when people expect all girls my age to go serve a formal mission, almost like it's the expectation of girls like it is for boys. That's really hard for me to deal with sometimes. I have had many people from my family, my ward, and just people I know, ask me if I am going to serve a mission. I answer with the usual, "No, I'm not going to serve a mission right now. I feel like I need to stay at school and finish my degree before thinking of going on a mission." To that response, I usually get a, "Well, why not? You totally could--nothing's wrong with you is there?" NO. There isn't something wrong with me. I usually get a raise of the eyebrows, a disapproving look, and as they're walking away, they usually say, "That's too bad. The church just lost what would have been a great missionary."
It's hard not to cry or get a little upset when people say that. The church hasn't lost a great missionary. I can still be one to people around me wherever I go. I don't have to have a name tag to be able to do missionary work. Sure, the work is a lot more focused on a formal mission, but that doesn't mean people at home can't be missionaries.
Be an example. Be faithful to the church. Create a relationship with Heavenly Father and the Savior. Learn how to listen to the Spirit. Be in tune and follow the promptings you get.
You can be a missionary too.
So just because I'm 19 years old, and I'm a girl, does not automatically make me a missionary like most of the world seems to assume now. The Lord has other plans in store for me at this point in life, and I intend to follow what He has in store for me. I'm sure it's a whole lot better than what I would have come up with myself.
I hope if any girl is the age to serve a mission and she feels like she needs to stay home, but might be looked down on by people because she isn't serving a mission, to stand up for what she feels is right for her in her life. A mission wasn't meant for everyone, especially in the case for girls. The most important thing is that you follow the promptings you get from the Spirit, not the people around you. You are in charge of what happens in your life (for the most part)--only you can get inspiration for yourself.
Alright, alright, so heavy negative venting part one is over. :)
Here's the uplifting part two. :)
Because none of my friends are really home anymore, I have been pretty lonely lately. Yes, I'm at home with my family, and I'm glad, but I'm really missing the social aspect and the people my age that comes with going to school. I miss basically everything about being at school. Even the homework. It's come to this. :)
Anyways, I got in touch with one of my really great friends who recently got married, and we got together to just simply talk and catch up on our lives. It was such a great experience! She's just a few steps ahead of me in life, and our lives have seemed to be pretty similar to each others. Just in events that happen, and what not. She talked about how she met her husband, how she went on to realize that she wanted to marry him, and the process of getting engaged, planning a wedding, getting married, and now being married. It was actually pretty nice to hear that someone has gone through what I'm going through and that it really does get better. She is such an example to me, and I don't know if she knows that I look up to her and find her exemplary, but she is a complete role model to me. It was so nice to have her support when it came to talking about getting ready to go through the temple, making myself ready to be a wife, and looking for qualities that really matter when it comes to being married, etc.
I knew we were pretty good friends, but I had no idea that we were close enough friends that she considered me as a bridesmaid. I almost teared up when I first heard her say that. That meant so much to me! In that moment, I was so thankful for her as a friend, and I was thankful for her example and her being able and willing to talk to me about things like this.
She told me that when I'm getting married, she'll help me with planning (if and when I need help--since she's been through it recently), help with planning my friend bridal shower, and just being there on my wedding day. It was nice to hear that she'll fly out for my wedding too, depending on circumstances. I couldn't have asked for a better evening than to spend with a dear friend who I care about and who cares about me. Nothing could sound more relieving and pleasant than having friends help me along a journey that will be amazing! It only happens once in your life, so they'll make it more fun!
When I get married one day, (and you know who you are if you're reading this!) you are definitely going to be one of my bridesmaids or my Maid of Honor. That is, if my husband doesn't have a gazillion sisters! I don't even know if I'll have a Maid of Honor--maybe I'll just have bridesmaids that kind of work together to plan stuff. That'd be a little easier, I don't know! We'll figure it out when the time eventually comes.
So many things. So much has happened. So much has changed. So much will be figured out.
Missions.
Going to college.
Becoming a teacher.
Becoming myself.
Live. Love. Laugh. Grow.
I guess I'll get the negative thing off my mind first so that this post ends on a very positive note. :)
You may remember that in October when they made the missionary age change announcement, I felt strongly that I needed to serve a mission for the church. Many people were very supportive of my decision, and lots of people were very willing to lend me a hand with advice, scripture reading tips, etc, for my mission, and I was thrilled with all the support.
Although many people were supporting me, including my family, I was hitting roadblock after roadblock after roadblock with just getting the mission papers started. I know that Satan tries to prevent people from going on missions, but this didn't quite seem like that.
I remember one Seminary class I had where a teacher told us that Satan doesn't always tempt us with bad decisions or things. He can tempt us with very good things, but things that would distract us from the righteous thing we were supposed to be doing at that moment. Usually these things happen at a moment in our life that could be life-changing. Satan knows we're not going to do something drastically bad on a whim, but he knows the righteous will choose the more righteous thing over the other if there's a choice of that. A decision of what's good, better, and best.
I know now, after hitting roadblocks with my major, my schooling, and other things, I am sure that I am not supposed to serve a formal mission, wearing a name tag, but rather stay at school and finish my schooling before anything else. Just because I don't wear a black name tag that says "Sister Rowe" on it does not mean I am less capable or worth less than other sister missionaries that are out serving. Yes, they are doing a great thing and are noteworthy for leaving their families and their lives behind for a year and a half, but they aren't the only sister missionaries in the world.
There are lots of girls like me out there that haven't served a mission and won't be serving a formal mission, but that's okay. That doesn't mean we're less important or capable than other sisters. I'm not trying to put sister missionaries down at all--I'm really not. Most of my friends are on missions right now. And I couldn't be prouder and happier of them. This is a great experience for them.
What I just don't like is when people expect all girls my age to go serve a formal mission, almost like it's the expectation of girls like it is for boys. That's really hard for me to deal with sometimes. I have had many people from my family, my ward, and just people I know, ask me if I am going to serve a mission. I answer with the usual, "No, I'm not going to serve a mission right now. I feel like I need to stay at school and finish my degree before thinking of going on a mission." To that response, I usually get a, "Well, why not? You totally could--nothing's wrong with you is there?" NO. There isn't something wrong with me. I usually get a raise of the eyebrows, a disapproving look, and as they're walking away, they usually say, "That's too bad. The church just lost what would have been a great missionary."
It's hard not to cry or get a little upset when people say that. The church hasn't lost a great missionary. I can still be one to people around me wherever I go. I don't have to have a name tag to be able to do missionary work. Sure, the work is a lot more focused on a formal mission, but that doesn't mean people at home can't be missionaries.
Be an example. Be faithful to the church. Create a relationship with Heavenly Father and the Savior. Learn how to listen to the Spirit. Be in tune and follow the promptings you get.
You can be a missionary too.
So just because I'm 19 years old, and I'm a girl, does not automatically make me a missionary like most of the world seems to assume now. The Lord has other plans in store for me at this point in life, and I intend to follow what He has in store for me. I'm sure it's a whole lot better than what I would have come up with myself.
I hope if any girl is the age to serve a mission and she feels like she needs to stay home, but might be looked down on by people because she isn't serving a mission, to stand up for what she feels is right for her in her life. A mission wasn't meant for everyone, especially in the case for girls. The most important thing is that you follow the promptings you get from the Spirit, not the people around you. You are in charge of what happens in your life (for the most part)--only you can get inspiration for yourself.
Alright, alright, so heavy negative venting part one is over. :)
Here's the uplifting part two. :)
Because none of my friends are really home anymore, I have been pretty lonely lately. Yes, I'm at home with my family, and I'm glad, but I'm really missing the social aspect and the people my age that comes with going to school. I miss basically everything about being at school. Even the homework. It's come to this. :)
Anyways, I got in touch with one of my really great friends who recently got married, and we got together to just simply talk and catch up on our lives. It was such a great experience! She's just a few steps ahead of me in life, and our lives have seemed to be pretty similar to each others. Just in events that happen, and what not. She talked about how she met her husband, how she went on to realize that she wanted to marry him, and the process of getting engaged, planning a wedding, getting married, and now being married. It was actually pretty nice to hear that someone has gone through what I'm going through and that it really does get better. She is such an example to me, and I don't know if she knows that I look up to her and find her exemplary, but she is a complete role model to me. It was so nice to have her support when it came to talking about getting ready to go through the temple, making myself ready to be a wife, and looking for qualities that really matter when it comes to being married, etc.
I knew we were pretty good friends, but I had no idea that we were close enough friends that she considered me as a bridesmaid. I almost teared up when I first heard her say that. That meant so much to me! In that moment, I was so thankful for her as a friend, and I was thankful for her example and her being able and willing to talk to me about things like this.
She told me that when I'm getting married, she'll help me with planning (if and when I need help--since she's been through it recently), help with planning my friend bridal shower, and just being there on my wedding day. It was nice to hear that she'll fly out for my wedding too, depending on circumstances. I couldn't have asked for a better evening than to spend with a dear friend who I care about and who cares about me. Nothing could sound more relieving and pleasant than having friends help me along a journey that will be amazing! It only happens once in your life, so they'll make it more fun!
When I get married one day, (and you know who you are if you're reading this!) you are definitely going to be one of my bridesmaids or my Maid of Honor. That is, if my husband doesn't have a gazillion sisters! I don't even know if I'll have a Maid of Honor--maybe I'll just have bridesmaids that kind of work together to plan stuff. That'd be a little easier, I don't know! We'll figure it out when the time eventually comes.
So many things. So much has happened. So much has changed. So much will be figured out.
Missions.
Going to college.
Becoming a teacher.
Becoming myself.
Live. Love. Laugh. Grow.
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